Thursday, October 3, 2013

My Weakness is His Strength

I recently have felt convicted to study up on how to let God be the one who I let lead more often in my life.  I so often let my insecurities, thoughts, and feelings control what I do, rather than trusting in what God thinks of me and trusting in Him to follow His Will to bring glory to Him. He loves me so much, yet I have a hard time trusting in it because I know I am a hard person to love (insecurity--big one of mine).

So I decided to study up on My weakness is His strength, and the ever recurring "I desire mercy, not sacrifice" in His Word, and through it, I feel even closer to God.  I have come to know Him even more deeper than I think I ever have since I came to know Him in a way that I consider Him my best friend, the only one I know completely understands me.

Well I've recently been reading Jesus Calling, a daily devotional, by Sarah Young of learning to live in His Presence, and learning how to "be still" (letting every person you think you've hurt, work, thinking about all of your responsibilities STOP to be with God) truly more important than anything else if you want to try and be as close to God as possible.  Through some things I've gone through in the past 3-4 years, I've learned God cares more about me being in His Presence than appearing "spiritual" to others.  I mainly wanted to start trying to blog every so often, as I feel God convicting me to share in my weaknesses, His Strength.   I pray that this blog glorifies Him, and shows His amazing "unconditional love".

So here come my weaknesses (I need you God, I can't do this on my own), and pray His Strength stands out...

So here is what I have learned about the fairly often repeated phrase in the bible "I desire mercy, not sacrifice"...

This is first prophesied by the prophet Hosea in Hosea 6:6, where God is saying that he doesn't want any sacrifices without a sacrificial heart.  So often we do the "religious motions" without actually desiring God with all our heart, mind, and soul.  God says that if we have mercy on others first, then the sacrifice will come.  If we do it the other way around, we usually have a selfish agenda tucked away inside if we do the sacrifice first, such as thinking we're a "good" person, and that we're earning heaven.  That is Satan's greatest trick I think.  To make so many think they are okay, when they are not.
I know I am guilty of this because I am so often a "people pleaser" and I want to be only a "God pleaser."  I know God loves me, and He is patient with me.  I want to be able to love Him more though, so that's why I'm trying to slowly live out God's design for me, to love Him and be loved by Him.  When I get that down only by God in me, not on my own, the priorities in life will be God's perfect lineup of what's most important to least important...and when I learn to not let my feelings/emotions "ever" control what I do, but only God and what I know deep down in my soul is right in God's eyes.
When I start seeing people the way God sees me, that we all need to be cared about; having mercy, the sacrifice will come, but not for any selfish reasons, for wanting to help that person to see Jesus, making sure it leads to Him.  And I'll end with a great illustration from a video about service that illustrates how we see people before Jesus, and then after God opens our eyes.
In HIM and HIS Glory Alone!  Let's love people with God's Love. 1 John 4:7-21