When You Can't Feel God
So after you read the article from the link above, let me know if you have ever felt like that. I seem to be in a season of that ever since a very big high of feeling God at every moment. This is pretty vunerable to share with the world. God is trying to get me to learn that He desires for me to want and need ONLY HIM ALONE. I think through the experiences, it has taught me to only delight in HIM, and not what I can get out of the relationship, but to focus on who He is, and what He has done for me that day on the cross, to help me to keep that closer to my heart than I have ever done before in the past. He is helping me to trust HIM, my sins I seem to always go back to is wanting control, worrying, and not living in the present----it's crazy just how important it is to give your whole heart to God.
He also has taught me how to have more compassion through hurting people, and how important and crucial it is to love right there in the midst of the hurt, rather than loving someone once they've proven themselves, a false worldly type of love. I want to love unconditionally, and it's still so foreign to me. I can feel HIM gently guiding me how to show anyone and everyone unconditional love. It's the world's greatest need. And this is true of anyone, no matter what they have done, I truly mean that. There is no hope otherwise.
I still am reading the same chapter in the bible pretty much daily, and I have to confess, I have not been as deep in HIS word for over a year, so this is major for me and my walk with God. I have had a horrible time with finding one on one time with God ever since I started homeschooling. Once I admitted that out loud to a dear friend, it convicted me of it, and I have been deep in HIS word again, and I am just having a deep hunger to give ALL of my heart to God. I am so thankful for this friend who cares enough to spend time with me and to encourage me. In the past, I felt unworthy of even asking for this, I still do, but people have shown me that it's not a burden to them, but rather a joy, and I am eternally grateful.
Well here's where God has had me in HIS Word: Matthew 5: 3-12